Is Asexuality A Sin?

[I posted the following on Facebook on 9 June 2015. I had this site back then, but for some reason it never occurred to me to post it here. I was looking through old posts and came across this and figured it’d be a perfect post here. I’ve edited slightly for grammar, but otherwise it’s exactly what I posted on Facebook over three years ago. Yes, I do long Facebook posts. My friends complain about it all the time…]


Well, great! I get home from work and lay down to rest and check my notifications and find I messages from three different people. Two on my friend’s list but never spoken to, and one not even on my friends list and had no idea who she was. All three were angry about a post I did the other day. The one where I said that I’m asexual. That wasn’t really an announcement, I just casually said it publicly.

Anyway, those three girls were upset about it and said things like, “You call yourself a Christian and yet you’ll commit such a disgusting sin!”. Three different wordings of that. Apparently they didn’t realize what asexuality is. I’m finding that to be the case, usually having to explain it. So here is the Wikipedia summary for those who don’t know what it is.

“Asexuality (or nonsexuality) is the lack of sexual attraction to anyone, or low or absent interest in sexual activity. It may be considered the lack of a sexual orientation, or one of the variations thereof, alongside heterosexuality, homosexuality, and bisexuality.”

Other definitions describe it as “lack of sex drive”. Like, I don’t think about the world sexually, and it makes for some awkward moments because I’ll say something I intend to sound purely innocent, but everyone around me thinks as perverted.

Like one time this girl asked me if it looked like she was losing weight. I said that she did, because her stomach used to be level with her boobs and now her stomach was several inches back. To me it wasn’t a perverted comment, it was just an honest observation. Sure, I noticed her boobs, but I also noticed her arms and eyes. That’s how I saw it. But all of a sudden everyone in the room was like, “Creepy!” and “Pervert!!”. I was baffled at first.

One of the waitresses at work noticed that I don’t hit on or flirt with her or the other waitresses. She thanked me for “restraining” and then helped me clear a few tubs of dishes. To me that was a weird thought, because I wasn’t restraining, it honestly never occurred to me to do that, and I wouldn’t have even if it had.

Anyway, the three girls who sent angry messages tonight claimed asexuality is a sin. They probably assumed it was homosexuality or something. I’m definitely straight, I like girls, just I’m not interested in sex. I know, I know, that’s baffling to most people. But onto my point. Let’s see if asexuality is a sin.

1 Corinthians 6:18-20 (KJV)

Flee fornication. Every sin that a man doeth is without the body; but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his own body. What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own? For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God’s.

1 Corinthians 7:8-9 (KJV)

I say therefore to the unmarried and widows, it is good for them if they abide even as I. But if they cannot contain, let them marry: for it is better to marry than to burn.

1 Corinthians 7:25-28 KJV

Now concerning virgins I have no commandment of the Lord: yet I give my judgment, as one that hath obtained mercy of the Lord to be faithful. I suppose therefore that this is good for the present distress, I say, that it is good for a man so to be. Art thou bound unto a wife? seek not to be loosed. Art thou loosed from a wife? seek not a wife. But and if thou marry, thou hast not sinned; and if a virgin marry, she hath not sinned. Nevertheless such shall have trouble in the flesh: but I spare you.

And this is a very important one…

Matthew 5:27-28 KJV

Ye have heard that it was said by them of old time, Thou shalt not commit adultery: But I say unto you, That whosoever looketh on a woman to lust after her hath committed adultery with her already in his heart.

Um…I’m not seeing asexuality as being a sin. If anything, Scripture encourages it. I didn’t choose to be asexual, I’ve always been like this. Alot of people ask why I hate sex. I don’t hate it, I’ve never even had it. I just have no interest in it. It’s like sports. I know it exists, but I don’t understand why everyone looses their heads over it, and every attempt by people to explain it just made it more confusing.

Sermon on the Mount

When someone quotes Jesus, most of the time the quote comes from the Sermon on the Mount. It encompasses Matthew 5, 6, and 7, and contains pretty much every major “Jesus quote” you see around. Last night, I opened my Bible app and even though I hadn’t even been in Matthew last time I’d opened it, for some reason it opened to Matthew 5. So I started reading, and I’ve been thinking about the words in the Sermon ever since. I don’t really have anything to add to it, but I just wanted to post it here in it’s entirety. Below is the entire Sermon on the Mount. I decided to list this under “Straight Outta Context” because people are always taking these words out of context, and this puts it all in context. At least, that’s my reasoning for listing it there. I just didn’t want to put it under Miscellaneous, because everyone ignores that one.


Matthew 5 (KJV)

And seeing the multitudes, he went up into a mountain: and when he was set, his disciples came unto him:

And he opened his mouth, and taught them, saying,

Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted.

Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth.

Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.

Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.

Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God.

Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.

10 Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness’ sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

11 Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.

12 Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you.

13 Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men.

14 Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid.

15 Neither do men light a candle, and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick; and it giveth light unto all that are in the house.

16 Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.

17 Think not that I am come to destroy the law, or the prophets: I am not come to destroy, but to fulfil.

18 For verily I say unto you, Till heaven and earth pass, one jot or one tittle shall in no wise pass from the law, till all be fulfilled.

19 Whosoever therefore shall break one of these least commandments, and shall teach men so, he shall be called the least in the kingdom of heaven: but whosoever shall do and teach them, the same shall be called great in the kingdom of heaven.

20 For I say unto you, That except your righteousness shall exceed the righteousness of the scribes and Pharisees, ye shall in no case enter into the kingdom of heaven.

21 Ye have heard that it was said of them of old time, Thou shalt not kill; and whosoever shall kill shall be in danger of the judgment:

22 But I say unto you, That whosoever is angry with his brother without a cause shall be in danger of the judgment: and whosoever shall say to his brother, Raca, shall be in danger of the council: but whosoever shall say, Thou fool, shall be in danger of hell fire.

23 Therefore if thou bring thy gift to the altar, and there rememberest that thy brother hath ought against thee;

24 Leave there thy gift before the altar, and go thy way; first be reconciled to thy brother, and then come and offer thy gift.

25 Agree with thine adversary quickly, whiles thou art in the way with him; lest at any time the adversary deliver thee to the judge, and the judge deliver thee to the officer, and thou be cast into prison.

26 Verily I say unto thee, Thou shalt by no means come out thence, till thou hast paid the uttermost farthing.

27 Ye have heard that it was said by them of old time, Thou shalt not commit adultery:

28 But I say unto you, That whosoever looketh on a woman to lust after her hath committed adultery with her already in his heart.

29 And if thy right eye offend thee, pluck it out, and cast it from thee: for it is profitable for thee that one of thy members should perish, and not that thy whole body should be cast into hell.

30 And if thy right hand offend thee, cut it off, and cast it from thee: for it is profitable for thee that one of thy members should perish, and not that thy whole body should be cast into hell.

31 It hath been said, Whosoever shall put away his wife, let him give her a writing of divorcement:

32 But I say unto you, That whosoever shall put away his wife, saving for the cause of fornication, causeth her to commit adultery: and whosoever shall marry her that is divorced committeth adultery.

33 Again, ye have heard that it hath been said by them of old time, Thou shalt not forswear thyself, but shalt perform unto the Lord thine oaths:

34 But I say unto you, Swear not at all; neither by heaven; for it is God’s throne:

35 Nor by the earth; for it is his footstool: neither by Jerusalem; for it is the city of the great King.

36 Neither shalt thou swear by thy head, because thou canst not make one hair white or black.

37 But let your communication be, Yea, yea; Nay, nay: for whatsoever is more than these cometh of evil.

38 Ye have heard that it hath been said, An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth:

39 But I say unto you, That ye resist not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also.

40 And if any man will sue thee at the law, and take away thy coat, let him have thy cloak also.

41 And whosoever shall compel thee to go a mile, go with him twain.

42 Give to him that asketh thee, and from him that would borrow of thee turn not thou away.

43 Ye have heard that it hath been said, Thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy.

44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;

45 That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust.

46 For if ye love them which love you, what reward have ye? do not even the publicans the same?

47 And if ye salute your brethren only, what do ye more than others? do not even the publicans so?

48 Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect.


Matthew 6 (KJV)

Take heed that ye do not your alms before men, to be seen of them: otherwise ye have no reward of your Father which is in heaven.

Therefore when thou doest thine alms, do not sound a trumpet before thee, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and in the streets, that they may have glory of men. Verily I say unto you, They have their reward.

But when thou doest alms, let not thy left hand know what thy right hand doeth:

That thine alms may be in secret: and thy Father which seeth in secret himself shall reward thee openly.

And when thou prayest, thou shalt not be as the hypocrites are: for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and in the corners of the streets, that they may be seen of men. Verily I say unto you, They have their reward.

But thou, when thou prayest, enter into thy closet, and when thou hast shut thy door, pray to thy Father which is in secret; and thy Father which seeth in secret shall reward thee openly.

But when ye pray, use not vain repetitions, as the heathen do: for they think that they shall be heard for their much speaking.

Be not ye therefore like unto them: for your Father knoweth what things ye have need of, before ye ask him.

After this manner therefore pray ye: Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name.

10 Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven.

11 Give us this day our daily bread.

12 And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors.

13 And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil: For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen.

14 For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you:

15 But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.

16 Moreover when ye fast, be not, as the hypocrites, of a sad countenance: for they disfigure their faces, that they may appear unto men to fast. Verily I say unto you, They have their reward.

17 But thou, when thou fastest, anoint thine head, and wash thy face;

18 That thou appear not unto men to fast, but unto thy Father which is in secret: and thy Father, which seeth in secret, shall reward thee openly.

19 Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal:

20 But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal:

21 For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.

22 The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light.

23 But if thine eye be evil, thy whole body shall be full of darkness. If therefore the light that is in thee be darkness, how great is that darkness!

24 No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon.

25 Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment?

26 Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they?

27 Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature?

28 And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin:

29 And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.

30 Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith?

31 Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?

32 (For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.

33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.

34 Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.


Matthew 7 (KJV)

Judge not, that ye be not judged.

For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again.

And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother’s eye, but considerest not the beam that is in thine own eye?

Or how wilt thou say to thy brother, Let me pull out the mote out of thine eye; and, behold, a beam is in thine own eye?

Thou hypocrite, first cast out the beam out of thine own eye; and then shalt thou see clearly to cast out the mote out of thy brother’s eye.

Give not that which is holy unto the dogs, neither cast ye your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet, and turn again and rend you.

Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:

For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.

Or what man is there of you, whom if his son ask bread, will he give him a stone?

10 Or if he ask a fish, will he give him a serpent?

11 If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask him?

12 Therefore all things whatsoever ye would that men should do to you, do ye even so to them: for this is the law and the prophets.

13 Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat:

14 Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.

15 Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves.

16 Ye shall know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes of thorns, or figs of thistles?

17 Even so every good tree bringeth forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree bringeth forth evil fruit.

18 A good tree cannot bring forth evil fruit, neither can a corrupt tree bring forth good fruit.

19 Every tree that bringeth not forth good fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire.

20 Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them.

21 Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven.

22 Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works?

23 And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.

24 Therefore whosoever heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them, I will liken him unto a wise man, which built his house upon a rock:

25 And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell not: for it was founded upon a rock.

26 And every one that heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them not, shall be likened unto a foolish man, which built his house upon the sand:

27 And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell: and great was the fall of it.

28 And it came to pass, when Jesus had ended these sayings, the people were astonished at his doctrine:

29 For he taught them as one having authority, and not as the scribes.


Acts 15:11 (KJV)

But we believe that through the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ we shall be saved, even as they.

You have no doubt seen posts like the title of this around social media. There may have been variations, such as saying Jesus, or saying that you will be blessed if you share this in the next ten seconds. A few even say that you will be saved if you share it.

I’ve looked for years but have yet to find the verse where Jesus says, “You have heard it said that if you believe you shall be saved. But I am here to tell you that you cannot be saved unless you like and share everyone Christian post and comment ‘Amen’.”

I’m doing this post for personal reasons. Considered doing it awhile back, but decided against it because I thought of it as a “nonissue”. But I’ve been having someone bombard me with these messages multiple times a day for months. I have asked her to stop countless times, but she ignores me and keeps on doing it.

Well, tonight I called her out again…


This turned into an argument with me showing her other non-religious things she’d sent, including fake amber alerts and those annoying “send this panda/flower/etc to everyone you know to show you love them” messages. She then resorted to personal attacks, then blocked me.

I say all of this because I felt like it’s apparently important to point out that Jesus did not call us to like posts and type “amen” to be saved. To be saved, you must believe in Jesus. But not just believe in him.

James 2:19 (KJV)

Thou believest that there is one God; thou doest well: the devils also believe, and tremble.

So it’s not enough to just believe in Jesus. Even the devils believe in Him. They know He exists. No You must also believe Jesus. Trust in Him.

Being obnoxious about it just turns nonbelievers away.

Also, for those who are quick to share anything that says “Share if you love Jesus” without really looking at it; The power of Obi-Wan compels you!

Reason for My Absence

I know I haven’t posted here in a long time, minus the random I Am Not Ashamed review. Had a friend message me on Facebook if I was done with Fig Tree because she loves reading my posts. Truth is, I really wanted to post here, and had enough ideas come to mind that I could have easily doubled my current post count. But I was evicted from my apartment and went a few months without internet except on my phone. As I once said in a previous post that I’m not going to link to because I don’t remember which one it was and I’m too lazy to look for it, I don’t like the WordPress app or mobile site. The exception was that movie review, because it upset me so much I was willing to deal my issues with the app to type out an admittedly longer than initially planned post.

Well, I’m posting now, so that must mean I have internet! And the answer is…YES….. I have actually had internet for a few months now. It’s just that my only two year old computer has been acting up so much that it’s not even worth turning on, so it just sat there next to my Xbox One, collecting dust. Yes, I’ve been spending my time playing Xbox games and watching Netflix, Hulu, and YouTube. Not exactly productive, but now I am finally willing to deal with the madness that is this computer because I bought a new keyboard and mouse for some reason, and I really want to use them.

Not going to promise to post as frequently as before (Oohh, noo!! No more one post a month??), but I will try to post as much as I can. I didn’t forget about this site. I’ve still been telling people about it, sharing it with coworkers who expressed either that they are a believer or want to be, and even renewed the domain last month.

As for my health, incase anyone remembers, I was diagnosed with a “semi-cancer” in November 2015. While I still do chemo every three weeks (most recently today…yeah, yeah, I’ll go to sleep after I post this). I haven’t gotten better, but I also haven’t gotten worse. I’ve plateau’d. But my doctor said that I’m reacting so well to the treatment that he wants to, sometime by the end of the year, cut me back to once every four weeks instead of three. So that’s good news!

But I also have teeth issues. I thought I had two broken teeth and a cavity, and it was causing me great agony, to the point where I even started screaming in pain at work last Sunday night while laying on the ground and covering my mouth. Which is when I went to the dentist, who did an x-ray of my mouth. Turns out I have three broken teeth but only one of them is one I knew about. What I thought was the second broken tooth is actually an oddly placed cavity that can be filled. The cavity I thought I had is actually something I’ve never even heard of; The dentist called it “transfer pain”. The broken tooth I knew about is a bottom tooth, and where I thought the cavity is a top tooth directly above it. What I have been feeling is the pain from the bottom broken tooth. Somehow it’s transferring the pain to the top tooth, and I can feel it all the way to the back of my right eye.

I also have four wisdom teeth. One of them is coming in sideways and pushing against the roots of my other teeth. Another is coming between two other teeth, pushing them apart. One is at the very end of my mouth, and it has a cavity. The last came in backwards, facing into my skull. All of which explains why I am in such great agony. Luckily, they gave me Vicodin to help with the pain. The bottle says one every six hours, but I am afraid of getting addicted, so I only take it if it starts to really hurt, which is once every day or two. They’re planning on doing surgery in…..June…. So… Yeah, prayers that I don’t go insane by then. Oh, and they gave me Penicillin to prevent infection, so there’s also that…

Just, prayers in general would be appreciated at this point.

Minecraft Bible: Noah’s Ark

Have you ever played a video game called Minecraft? If not, I highly recommend it. Especially if you are the creative type. I have recreated Noah’s Ark based on the dimensions given in the Bible. It’s much bigger than I could have anticipated. Here is a video of it for those interested. I don’t have a way of recording the gameplay from my Xbox 360, so I had to setup my tripod and film the TV screen.

WWJD 2: The Woodcarver

Just because a movie is labelled a Christian movie doesn’t necessarily make it a good movie. Especially when the message they are trying to get through doesn’t quite get through. I’m referring to the movie What would Jesus Do 2: The Woodcarver (or just “The Woodcarver”). From what I can tell, it’s not really a sequel, because it has nothing in common with WWJD.

The only thing that saves this movie and makes it worth watching is that it stars John “The Pixar Guy” Ratzenberger. I recommend it just to see him in a modern live-action movie, but I don’t recommend it further than that.

The film is about a kid vandalizing a church and being made to help the woodcarver who custom-built parts of the church (Ratzenberger) fix it. The kid’s father, a contractor, prefers that they just order prefabricated parts instead of building them from scratch, but the woodcarver wants to stick with making them by hand, going as far as refusing large sums of money.

The kid’s father is one of the angriest people I’ve ever seen, and every scene he’s in at the first half of the movie, he throws a fit if he doesn’t get his way. The kid himself is a terribly-written character. At the start of the movie, when he’s vandalizing the church and being scalded by his parents and the pastor, it builds him up as this out-of-control delinquent. But the next scene, he’s offering to help the woodcarver and takes an interest in woodcarving, and his troublesome behaviour is forgotten. His character doesn’t change slowly throughout the film, it literally changes between scenes.

The kid’s father also abruptly change. No reason given, he’s just all of a sudden nicer and accepting of everything.

But none of that matters as long as the Christian message shines through.

It does not.

Granted, throughout the movie, characters say that the answer is to pray, and that they just prayed about it. But not one time in the entire film does it tell you how to pray, or even show a character praying. It’s like they took the “safe route” because they feared showing prayer would offend people.

Finally, I know miracles happen. I am not refuting that. What I am refuting is the method in which the film does it. The woodcarver has a month to finish the parts for the church. It takes the full month to do it. Then, the night before it’s due, someone sets fire to the entire work. The woodcarver is ready to give up, but the kid isn’t and says he’s going to pray, then he and his mother (who has no woodcarving experience) remakes the entire project in a matter of hours. I’m pretty sure God doesn’t work like that.

As previously  stated, just because a movie is a Christian movie, doesn’t make it good. I give this film a 3 out of 10.

It was on Netflix, but now it’s not. However, it is on YouTube

Looking For The Bible on the Map

Genesis 8:4 (KJV)

And the ark rested in the seventh month, on the seventeenth day of the month, upon the mountains of Ararat.

This one technically belongs in Archeobiblical, but I guess it’s a misperception.  Besides, it’s been well over a year since I last posted in this category.

I see this all the time; Someone sees a location in the Bible and wants to find where it is. I used to do that all the time. But you can’t just whip out a modern atlas or Google Maps and look up, for example, Canaan.


That’s because Canaan doesn’t exist anymore. It became Israel, and other areas. So looking at a modern map, you wouldn’t find it.

I’ve seen nonbelievers use this to disprove the Bible. “It’s not on the map, so it doesn’t exist”. Yes, it doesn’t exist…now!”. Look at a map of Europe from a hundred years ago and it looks much different than it does now. Heck, look a map from last week! I mean, technically this Brexit thing isn’t going to really change the map, but when they colour code certain maps, the UK will be a different colour.

Anyway, what got me wanting to do this is that I forgot to add one small detail in my Noah’s Ark post. Durupınar site, the official name for the location, is fifteen miles south of Mount Ararat. This is important and one of the major reason why I, and others, believe this to be the Ark.

If Mount Ararat sounds familiar, then it’s because it’s where countless people have explored in search of Noah’s Ark. That’s where the Bible said the Ark landed. But go reread the opening verse again. “…mountains of Ararat“. MountainS, plural. Ararat was the name of the region, not the name of the mountain. The area’s name was later changed to Turkey, and the mountain was given the name Ararat.

But the fact that the Ark isn’t isn’t sitting on the mountain, so many “experts”, most of them fellow believers, deny that Durupinar is the Ark. If they’d read the Bible, they’d find that it is.

Speaking of which, even Google Maps recognizes Durupinar Site as Noah’s Ark. which I honestly didn’t expect!

Noah's Ark


But anyway, the same goes for countless other locations listed in the Bible. Most of those cities, kingdoms, and nations no longer exist, so you’d need an ancient map to look for them. Just because they’re not on Google Maps (though after that Noah’s Ark thing I wouldn’t be surprised if there was at least a marker letting you know something was there once), doesn’t mean the Bible is disproved.

Christian Mingle

By now I am sure that everyone is aware of the Christian dating website, Christian Mingle. It’s pretty hard to ignore, considering they advertise everywhere. I would not be surprised if they end up having a massive banner across the Moon someday. But for now, they did the next best thing.

They made a movie.

The film is about an attractive girl, Gwyneth, living in a universe where she doesn’t have any luck with dates, and no one even attempts to flirt with her, until she happens across Christian Mingle. She’s not a believer, but figures she can fake it and no one would notice. Of course, this being a feature length advertisement, the next day she goes on a date with the first guy she meets on the site, Paul. He appears to be the first guy in the world to be able to look her in the beautiful eyes and not vomit in disgust. He also happens to be attractive. Because this is an advertisement for a dating website.

Christian Mingle.

The sight of them just makes me sick!

So, they go on a few dates. The whole time, Paul makes it quite obvious that he is a sincere Christian, and he just takes it for granted that she is, because she says she is. After awhile, he invites her to come spend time with his friends for a Bible study. At the study, his friends quickly realize that Gwyneth isn’t who she says she is.

The story carries on for a bit, then it turns out he and his family are about to head to Mexico on a missionary trip tomorrow! The reason he never told her was because he didn’t think they’d still be talking that long. Still, that’s kind of a bit thing to mention. “Oh, by the way, I’m going to Mexico soon!”. She leaves her job without telling anyone but her friend and goes to Mexico.

That’s when Paul and his family find out her secret; she’s not really a Christian. They find out because she literally had a copy of Christianity For Dummies on her bed. Paul is upset and breaks up with her. When Gwyneth goes back to America, she decides to become a Christian, which she does over the course of a Rocky-style musical montage.

She goes and tells Paul the good news, but by then he’d moved on. But he wishes her luck in the future. It’s not the ending I would have expected for this movie, but they chose to go the realistic route for this one.

lol Just kidding. This is a feature-length advertisement for a dating site. They part ways, but then it cuts to “Next Christmas” and she’d moved to Mexico (??). Paul shows up out of nowhere and basically says, “Nevermind what I said before, let’s be together”. Roll credits.

Right, so I seem to be picking on this movie alot. That’s because it’s a Rom  Com, and I can’t help it. To be honest, it’s a surprisingly decent film, and I’d gladly watch it again. Not only is the film done well, the Christian message is clear and accurate. They could have just rushed out a thoughtless movie without any thought and just slapped their name on it, but I was impressed with the quality. I especially loved the opening credits (of all things). I always rate movies on a scale of 1 to 10, and I give this one an 8.

(It’s on Netflix)

This Is Amazing Grace

I posted back in October that I was in the hospital and needed prayers. Little did I realize that it was only the beginning of the longest five months of my life.

Part 1: The Hospital Stay

On 15 October 2015, I was approved for an apartment I’d been trying to get since April 2014. For various reasons I kept getting denied, but I was finally approved. The plan was that I was going to move on Halloween, as it would give me time to pack and transfer the electric to the new address. I’d posted the announcement on Facebook and told everyone at church that night. It was the happiest news I’d had in a long time. I was in a little pain at the time, but I was getting an apartment so I decided to worry about it later.

However, around 2am that night I was woken up by the pain increasing. It was in my lungs, and it seriously hurt to breathe. I could only take very shallow breaths. After the sun rose, I called a friend to take me to the hospital. They kept me overnight, but only focused on my stomach even though it was my lungs that hurt. My pastor came to get me after they discharged me when all the tests came back negative (because, again, wrong area).

Over the next few days I just laid in bed in extreme pain, until one day I asked my roommates to take me to the hospital. They refused and told me to call an ambulance, which I did. The ambulance took me to the same hospital, which discharged me a couple hours later, saying I was fine even though I was still in pain.

I called another friend on the evening of 21 October 2015. She said she was taking me to a different hospital, one that actually cared about the patients. Within a couple hours they determined that I had pneumonia and put me in a room. They intended to just keep me a couple days until I got better, the whole time taking blood and testing it.

As they were preparing to discharge me a couple days later, one of the doctors noticed something unusual in one of my blood tests and said he was going to keep me for observation. I got upset, because I just wanted to go home. But a few hours later, when I would have otherwise been home, both my kidneys abruptly shot through with extreme pain, causing me to scream in agony. The nurses ran in and gave me morphine for the pain, which put me to sleep, and then rolled my bed to do tests. When I woke up they told me my kidneys had stopped working, and they didn’t know why yet.

Over the next few days my white and red blood cell count dropped, as well as my blood platelet count. They had an IV in each arm and an IV tower on each side of me.


Over the next month, I had more tubes going in and out of me than I care to remember. They ended up having to put a catheter into my bladder and a dialysis catheter near it. They had me on dialysis. At one point I was unable to keep food down and constantly vomited. A nurse tried putting an NG tube up my nose. That’s a tube that goes into your nose and down into your stomach to drain it. It’s very unpleasant, and you’re unable to eat while it’s in.

It was in for two weeks.

My church family would come visit me as much as they could. One night after evening service, the “main people” (about ten people) came and stood around my bed and prayed over me.

The next day the NG tube was taken out. I was put on a clear liquid diet, but at least that tube was out.

One of the procedures they did was taking a sample of a swollen lymph node. The results came back negative.

I was in that hospital exactly three weeks, from 21 October to 11 November. On that day I was transferred to a different hospital, because the one I’d been at had done all they could and were still unable to figure out what was wrong with me.

On the evening of 18 November, I was rushed into ICU. A nurse had walked in on me having a seizure. I don’t remember much about that night, except that there was alot of doctors around me looking frantic, and my pastor and his wife were standing next to me. I kept drifting in and out of consciousness, and every time I woke up, my pastor and his wife were there. That’s pretty much all I remember about that night.

Over the next several days, every time I was taken to have a different procedure done and pass someone, they would say, “There’s the trooper!”. I assumed that’s what they said to everyone. Then one day as I was about to start dialysis, the nurse walked in and said that. I asked why everyone was saying that to me, and she looked shocked and said, “You mean you don’t know!?” When I shook my head she asked if I remember the ICU. I said yes and she said, “A nurse walked in on you having a seizure, so they rushed you to ICU, where they discovered that your hemoglobin was four!” I asked what that meant and she said, “You only had a pint of blood in your body! You were dangerously close to dying that night. They had at least five tubes in you rushing blood in”. The reason my pastor was there is because he’s my power of attorney and they called him when they discovered that.

One of the doctors wanted to look at the lymph node more thoroughly. So he had me scheduled for surgery to remove the whole thing. A couple days later, I finally had a diagnosis.

It was a rare blood cancer called Castleman Disease. It’s not full-fledged cancer, and the doctor called it a “semi-cancer”, but it still required chemo. They started treatment the next day, and immediately I started improving. My blood counts started going back up, and they were able to take me off dialysis because my kidneys started working again.

Part 2: Rehab

On 27 November 2015, the day after Thanksgiving, I was transferred to a rehab center. I’d been laying down the whole time I was in the hospital, and as a result I lost the use of my legs and basically had to relearn to walk. I could walk a little bit, but I relied heavily on a cane.

On 3 December, I went to church for the first time since before I got sick. I still couldn’t lift my legs too high, and ended up having to be hoisted into my pastor’s truck. When I walked into the church building, everyone stood up and came to me and we had a group hug. I started bawling, and when I looked up I noticed everyone else crying as well.

Afterward, it was agreed that someone with a smaller vehicle would take me back, so I could climb in easier. I asked if we could stop by my work so I could say hi to my old coworkers. I assumed they would be busy (it’s a restaurant), but to my surprise they didn’t have any customers. When I walked in, still relying on the cane, the girl behind the counter shouted my name in surprise, and there was a wave of my name going from the front of the restaurant to the back as the other people realized I was there and came to the front. We all got to chat for over ten minutes, and my manager told me that when I get better my job will still be waiting for me. Around that time my favourite coworker appeared and we hugged. I told her that I missed her the most.

Obviously, I lost the apartment I’d been approved for. But I called the office and the apartment manager said that since she knew me and understood my situation, she was holding another apartment for me. The first apartment was on the third floor, while the new one was basement level, which was more accessible to me in my condition.

On 18 December, Star Wars: The Force Awakens opened in theaters. I knew I had to see it before the Internet was filled with spoilers. So on 19 December, I used Uber to go to the theater. It was my first time out on my own in months. I was still using the cane, but at least I sat most of the time.

My last physical therapy session was on 31 December 2015. By then I didn’t really need the cane, but took it with me to church just as a precaution. I was unable to move into the apartment because I still needed to pay for the deposit and first month’s rent, and I hadn’t worked in months. Luckily, someone from church offered to pay for it. I asked them to wait until the end of the month, because then the rent would be prorated and he only had to pay $175 total instead of $700.

On 29 January 2016, I moved into my new apartment. On 6 February, i went back to work.


Part 3: Independence

My pastor told me that the doctor told him after the ICU that I would never be independent again, that I’ll have to live in assisted living for the rest of my life. Two months later I was walking, living in an apartment alone, and back at work. Not just back at work, but now I have more hours and do more than before.

I went to my work yesterday to order something. Normally when I’m there I wear my work shirt, which buttons up. Yesterday I wore a t-shirt, and it was the first time one of my coworkers had seen me in one. She saw the top of the dressing on the line in my chest where they do the chemo, and asked if I was okay. I told her it was for chemo. She was shocked, and said she thought I was gone all those months because I just didn’t feel well. I told her a very summarized version of this post, and she said I was amazing.

I’m not amazing. I did nothing. In fact, most of October and November, and part of December I cried everyday most of the day. One of the nurses even said she could tell I was getting better because I wasn’t crying as much.

But my point is that I had nothing to do with my recovery. It was Jesus. I had so many people praying for me in so many different states and countries. I’m still doing chemo every three weeks, but the doctor said that as long as I continue treatments I should be fine. As thus far I am fine. I feel fine. Better than ever!

This whole experience has taught me patience. I no longer worry about anything. If He wanted me dead, I wouldn’t be here now. I even told the doctors that my life is in His hands. And I made it through. So I don’t worry anymore. If something happens, it’s going to happen regardless. Nothing I can do about it, so worrying about it would be counterproductive.

I didn’t forget about this blog. I’m still without Internet on my computer, and I hate typing posts on my phone (I have been updating the Instagram account, though, so there’s that). But this was weighing heavily on my heart tonight. Several friends have suggested that I write about it, but I have been refusing. I don’t remember everything because I was either unconscious or drugged up, so I didn’t expect this to be more than three paragraphs at the most. But it ended up being so long that I just went back and added the “Part”s. (Yes, I typed this whole thing on my phone. When God leads you, he really leads… The title of this post comes from this song, which I’ve had stuck in my head the whole time I was typing it)

The biggest thing I hope people get from this is that prayer does work, and that anything can happen if you put your full trust and faith in Jesus. Also, doctors don’t know everything. Around the time I went into the hospital, my stepfather was also diagnosed with cancer (but, like, the real thing. Not a “semi-cancer”). A month ago he had tests done and his cancer is completely gone. The doctors are baffled with his case and with mine. So if you are diagnosed with something and the doctors tell you it’s hopeless, don’t listen to them. Jesus is called the Great Physician for a reason!

God is good!

Left Behind (2014)

I am referring to the recent reboot, not the original movie. I have my own issues with those Kirk Cameron movies, but that’s a different thing altogether. My issue today is with the Nicolas Cage film, released last year. I just watched it on Netflix and just had to share a few thoughts about it.

First off, it wasn’t my first time seeing it. I saw it when it first came out. I was just bored, scrolling through Netflix on my PS3 looking for something interesting to watch when I came across it. Didn’t even know it was on Netflix. So I turned my lights off, sat back and watched it again.

I have read all twelve books in the main Left Behind series, and even read the prequel trilogy (and yes, I know there are thirteen in the main series, but I couldn’t finish Kingdom Come. Halfway through and nothing had happened).  So I have some idea how this series SHOULD have been told, which I’ve always said shouldn’t be a Christian film studio. That’s because of you want to believably portray how the post-Rapture world is going to be, it can’t be with Christian actors who would be too afraid to act as ungodly as is depicted in the series. So when I heard there was going to be a Left Behind reboot starring Nicolas Case, I was excited, thinking this was what I’ve been wanting. Unfortunately, the studio wanted something different.

The reason I say that this is not a Christian film is that while it does present several of the Christian ideas behind the Rapture, and actually includes the Rapture, it does it in a mocking way. The few Christians in the movie are made to look like “wackos” (as Chloe Steele decides to call them). While I admit these characters are atheists at the beginning of the series, this film was intended as a stand-alone film, and only covers the first couple chapters of the book. They changed so much of the story that they could have called it anything else and no one would likely have made the connection.

However, I don’t really care if they kept the story intact. It’s the message I care about. In the film, Chloe visits Pastor Bruce Barnes. This would have been good if either he got through to her or they were planning on making a sequel to further his story, because he’s the one who convinces Rayford, Chloe, and Buck that this was the work of God and they are given this last chance to come to Him. Instead, in this film she criticises him, makes him look like a bad guy, and then leaves. You never see him again.

By the end of the movie, Rayford realizes what’s going on, so maybe he might believe if they furthered the story. But while they end with Chloe saying things were about to get way worse, she had no reason to believe. Everything up to that point had just made her angrier with God. Sure, she found out her dad was alive, but after everything she’d witnessed up to that point and how hard her heart was, I don’t think that would convince her of anything. I really wish they would have adapted the whole book.

Actually, I’ve thought that the only way to really do the series justice would be to make a seven season TV series (or even Netflix Original), that way they didn’t have to try and cram every detail into a two hour movie. Do each year of the Tribulation as a whole season of 25 episodes each. I’d love to watch that.

Oh, and before I end this post, I hear so many people say that the characters at the beginning of the series are offensive to Christians, because they’re horrible role models. Well, isn’t that the point? If they were perfect role models, they would have been Raptured. By the end of the series, these characters have grown so much that they are indistinguishable from who they were at the beginning. If you’ve never read the series, I highly recommend it.