I just changed the theme used for this website after leaving it virtually unchanged for over three years. Thought I’d make a post explaining why. But I’m sure some of you probably already know why. I’ve used the same sized screen to run this site, so I made the header with that screen in mind. I never checked this site from my phone or any other screen-sized computer. So I was unaware that the header changed size depending on the size of the screen. It fit on my screen, but someone with a smaller or bigger screen would show a distorted image. You can’t even see the image on mobile.
I was just made aware of that by a friend, who said she just assumed I did it to be artistic. No, this was unintentional. So I looked for a new theme that allowed me to remain simplistic while at the same time kept the image size regardless of the screen size. Before making this one live I checked on my phone and with my friend and the image stays the same on all three screens now!
I miss the green-tinted theme, but I also kind of like the change. Some changes can be good, and I think after over three years it was time for a change anyway. I hope my few regular readers don’t mind the change, because I know all it takes is one small wrong change to lose everyone. Let me know what you think, or what other changes you think I could/should make.
After I post this I’m going to work on making a list of further resources. I’ve been meaning to do that for awhile now, but I got an email from someone requesting that I add them to any such list, so that has motivated me to actually do it.
I also added the Fig Tree Reborn Instagram feed to the side panel under the Spotify playlist, and I removed the Internet Defense League badge from the sidebar that was causing that annoying popup every time anyone clicked anything on this site. I linked to it above because I still believe in the cause, but I don’t think it really belongs on this site.
How long wilt thou forget me, O Lord? for ever? how long wilt thou hide thy face from me? How long shall I take counsel in my soul, having sorrow in my heart daily? how long shall mine enemy be exalted over me? Consider and hear me, O Lord my God: lighten mine eyes, lest I sleep the sleep of death; Lest mine enemy say, I have prevailed against him; and those that trouble me rejoice when I am moved. But I have trusted in thy mercy; my heart shall rejoice in thy salvation.
This will be the most personal post I’ve ever done on this website. Except for this one, of course. I’ve struggled with depression probably my entire life. It’s been getting worse over the last two years, ever since the events in the linked article above. I was inspired to write this post after being told that I had “the sin of depression”. It made no sense to me that depression would be a sin, but decided to research it myself.
Doing a search for “sin of depression” doesn’t bring up anything about that, but instead things such as “10 Symptoms Of Depression“, “12 Signs of Depression“, and “Recognizing Depression Symptoms: 9 Warning Signs“. So that’s honestly comforting in an odd way. People aren’t pushing that foolish idea that depression is a sin. Unlike this page, which claims that depression and anxiety are sinful behaviors. Like someone can just choose to no longer be depressed anymore or to stop having anxiety at will.
I had someone tell me a story the other day where they met someone who struggled with depression and he told him that Jesus loves him, and “his face just lit up and the depression melted away. It’s that easy”. Uh… No it’s not.
It is definitely asking too much to ask that everyone always be able to be happy all the time, 24/7. 365 days a year. There is going to be dark moments from time to time. Some are a little darker than others.
Pretty much the only site I found that actually said it’s not a sin and talked about it being a mental disorder (you know, something you can’t just will away) was one of my favourite sites, one I’ve used countless times on this site; Got Questions. They rightly say that some depression isn’t something you can control, that going to a doctor for depression is the same as going to the doctor for an physical injury. I actually have been diagnosed with depression. They also did another, related article I highly recommend if you’re depressed.
Here’s a list of resources you can use if you struggle with anxiety and depression.